Reflections

This is a record of some things I wish to hold myself accountable for.

Today I’m deciding to not be so freaked out at every new thing that comes my way.

There are things you like to do, and then there are things you are good at doing. Once in a while they coincide, and sometimes they don’t. There comes a time when you start to realise that you’re not going to be good at everything you do. Life has, and will continue to, present lots of opportunities for you to do things you damned well don’t want to.

Day by day I’m learning how not to tremble in my shoes at the slightest hint of something unfamiliar. I’m learning to take these things in my stride, no matter how unwilling I may be to do so. More importantly, I’m learning not to fight so much – not that I was much of a fighter in the first place. I’m getting used to the fact that I don’t always have to be right, that things don’t always happen the way I want them to, and that, from time to time, I will screw up. I am, essentially, like every other person walking this earth. But I still hope for the best and try to give a little more than what’s expected. Because you know what? You’re gonna be faced with unfamiliar situations for the rest of your life. You’re going to have a lot more firsts way more disconcerting that your first day at school, and you’re going to have to learn how to deal with them.

As for the lessons along the way? I’ve learnt that life isn’t fair; there’s no karma, that good things happen and bad things happen and life goes on in spite. I’ve learnt you can’t please everyone, and you’re sure as hell going to offend some people – if you don’t you’re probably doing it wrong.

And to end, five things that I should have no problem with
1. Being imperfect
2. Letting go
3. Doing the right thing
4. Grinning and bearing it
5. Being fair