This week I will:
1. Offend people.
2. Get offended by people.
3. Make mistakes.
4. Forget something.
5. Swear a little.
6. Have good intentions anyway.
Life isn't perfect all the time and we shouldn't think it will be.
But I wake up anyway and tell myself that the week ahead is going to be okay. I’m hopelessly optimistic because it’s the least I can do. It’s not so bad. I guess.
I take in short, sharp breaths, try to untangle that knot in my stomach. Grit my teeth and ignore all the thoughts that tell me that things are not okay. I’m still a little unstable on my feet, but at least I’m on my feet. I’m getting through this, regardless.
Thursday, October 9, 2014
Saturday, May 3, 2014
Something about the near future.
Future's so uncertain, what do we do now seems so distant from what we'll be doing when we grow up. We're still not really ready yet to be stamped with that seal of approval, to be ushered out of our sheltered places to that intimidation that is the real world. We're worried - but then again, who isn't? Where do we go from when we graduate, where do our big dreams fit in with our practicalities, where do our idiosyncrasies go, and what can we do about it? We've got it going for us, got our ambitions, got our plans to change the world, and got our grades and a perhaps a little less EQ than we'll need. Worried perhaps, wondering the paths set out before us, but appreciating the fact that life's given us great things to be thankful for, and that if we try, sometimes we more than make up for our shortcomings. And there's just so much to do in so little time. No regrets here.
5 more days before the end of my academic life as an uni undergrad. Mixed feelings...
5 more days before the end of my academic life as an uni undergrad. Mixed feelings...
Friday, March 28, 2014
Chin up.
Every day I wish I could see the sun rise. But usually when the sun rises, I am still sound asleep. But occasionally I do get to see that beauty. And some days, I see it set as well. I haven't gotten sick of it yet, and I would hate for the day to come when I do.
These days we're wondering what's happening on the other side of the world, wondering if it matters, wondering if we matter. Some of us live it up to brilliant sunrises, others up to fleeting moments, and then there are those who live it up to losing their skin on the asphalt, and some up to solitary hours late at night. It's time for us to face it, that we're not that different despite what we wish to tell ourselves. The greatest moments some of us may experience may be a few seconds on stage to receive our certificates. We may never get the chance to address crowds, and most of us will probably not have a statue erected in our honour, or have books written about our lives. Most of us will probably live average, pedestrian lives.
But that doesn't stop us from living on on the lives of others. There's so much more to be done, and seriously, a whole lot of empty spaces for you fill. There's one whole world out there, and we just have to discover.
These days we're wondering what's happening on the other side of the world, wondering if it matters, wondering if we matter. Some of us live it up to brilliant sunrises, others up to fleeting moments, and then there are those who live it up to losing their skin on the asphalt, and some up to solitary hours late at night. It's time for us to face it, that we're not that different despite what we wish to tell ourselves. The greatest moments some of us may experience may be a few seconds on stage to receive our certificates. We may never get the chance to address crowds, and most of us will probably not have a statue erected in our honour, or have books written about our lives. Most of us will probably live average, pedestrian lives.
But that doesn't stop us from living on on the lives of others. There's so much more to be done, and seriously, a whole lot of empty spaces for you fill. There's one whole world out there, and we just have to discover.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Reflections
This is a record of some things I wish to hold myself accountable for.
Today I’m deciding to not be so freaked out at every new thing that comes my way.
There are things you like to do, and then there are things you are good at doing. Once in a while they coincide, and sometimes they don’t. There comes a time when you start to realise that you’re not going to be good at everything you do. Life has, and will continue to, present lots of opportunities for you to do things you damned well don’t want to.
Day by day I’m learning how not to tremble in my shoes at the slightest hint of something unfamiliar. I’m learning to take these things in my stride, no matter how unwilling I may be to do so. More importantly, I’m learning not to fight so much – not that I was much of a fighter in the first place. I’m getting used to the fact that I don’t always have to be right, that things don’t always happen the way I want them to, and that, from time to time, I will screw up. I am, essentially, like every other person walking this earth. But I still hope for the best and try to give a little more than what’s expected. Because you know what? You’re gonna be faced with unfamiliar situations for the rest of your life. You’re going to have a lot more firsts way more disconcerting that your first day at school, and you’re going to have to learn how to deal with them.
As for the lessons along the way? I’ve learnt that life isn’t fair; there’s no karma, that good things happen and bad things happen and life goes on in spite. I’ve learnt you can’t please everyone, and you’re sure as hell going to offend some people – if you don’t you’re probably doing it wrong.
And to end, five things that I should have no problem with
1. Being imperfect
2. Letting go
3. Doing the right thing
4. Grinning and bearing it
5. Being fair
Today I’m deciding to not be so freaked out at every new thing that comes my way.
There are things you like to do, and then there are things you are good at doing. Once in a while they coincide, and sometimes they don’t. There comes a time when you start to realise that you’re not going to be good at everything you do. Life has, and will continue to, present lots of opportunities for you to do things you damned well don’t want to.
Day by day I’m learning how not to tremble in my shoes at the slightest hint of something unfamiliar. I’m learning to take these things in my stride, no matter how unwilling I may be to do so. More importantly, I’m learning not to fight so much – not that I was much of a fighter in the first place. I’m getting used to the fact that I don’t always have to be right, that things don’t always happen the way I want them to, and that, from time to time, I will screw up. I am, essentially, like every other person walking this earth. But I still hope for the best and try to give a little more than what’s expected. Because you know what? You’re gonna be faced with unfamiliar situations for the rest of your life. You’re going to have a lot more firsts way more disconcerting that your first day at school, and you’re going to have to learn how to deal with them.
As for the lessons along the way? I’ve learnt that life isn’t fair; there’s no karma, that good things happen and bad things happen and life goes on in spite. I’ve learnt you can’t please everyone, and you’re sure as hell going to offend some people – if you don’t you’re probably doing it wrong.
And to end, five things that I should have no problem with
1. Being imperfect
2. Letting go
3. Doing the right thing
4. Grinning and bearing it
5. Being fair